*sighs*

sad i'm going to miss the show... it looked great

Isn't it enough . . .?

"You were, and are, incredibly f*cking hot.
Isn't that enough?"

it would be . . . had it come from YOU.

DOES it have to do with me . . .?

OF COURSE IT DOES!!!!!
GEEZ!!!!!!

snow snow go away

would you have seen me anyway?


I know you say I always think the worst . . . but I can't help it...

Confusion . . . . .

hot and cold.....
cold and hot . . . .

all these plans..... then i get ignored for a day...
i'm sorry.... don't i deserve better than this?
i don't believe you have any right to treat me this way. maybe i'm misunderstanding, but right now, i'm confused, i'm hurt, and i'm ofended.... and i'd like some damn responses.

I'm not sure I understand . . .

But I'm trying to......
but 2 days ago.... it was "i want you"
now its that you failed and want to try your "month" again..... but whats at the end of the month?
why take a month now...
things are great right now.

"Well I want you"

Oh dear........
I hope I don't regret this..

AWE

I got to act today... for little kids. . . . well ages 3-15 i guess.
act and play drama games, and i get paid for it.
best day ever!!!!!
really taught me a lot.
I WANT TO DO THIS.

UGH

so much snow.....
get to be an elf tomorrow.
someone shoveled out a parking spot for me tonight, so nice of her.


awesome vote:
http://www.awesomeoff.com/matches/robocop-on-a-unicorn-vs-chewbacca-809.html#lp1

Acting

Oh my goodness.... best class ever.
stage felt surprisingly comfortable....
i WANTED to get up, i wanted to do more... ME the girl who doesn't even really like to improv.
That excites me.

I will miss this group. I love them all.
so great.... i'm sad class must end, but we celebrated and went out with a bang.

Fighting with you i could have done without..... i don't talk... the fact that i started to... or tried to.... and you LET ME WALK AWAY....... ouch.
you make no sense....
you confuse me.
hey let's pretend.... NO. it doesn't work that way.
Unless of course . . . . you're acting.

Darnit

I lost track of time, and didn't buy STOMP tickets while they were on sale.... thats upsetting.... debating getting them still.... but its just so much more expensive... DARN DARN DARN.

didn't get the last audition.... can I prepare for a new one in under a week???
hmmmmmm

Almost

almost done classes for the year... as i said last acting class tomorrow night, last pr was yesterday.... except for a big assignment.
i think if its a 2 day course the assignments should not be so big.. 8 pages, in a week, that seems a bit excessive.
and no opportunity to ask anything.
so they give us the assignment and say thanks for coming to the class.
.
.
.
.
AWESOME..... thats crap, how do i learn that way?

especially when the class is DONE, and you don't get the assignment back, or any feedback, only a mark.
seems a bit ridiculous.

i really liked how during our in class assignment yesterday the teacher could be found reading the shopaholic books in the classroom not in the lab for questions or anything. very... helpful.....

Strange

how the weather can change so much so quickly.
Thursday i went up to edmonton, the drive home took 6 hours 45 minutes as the highway was closed. was the trip worth it... still yes. great trip.
good talks,
and company for the highway closure so thats ok... scary though how a highway thats PURE ice, could look so dry and normal.... and feel normal... until slowing that is.
you make me like the snow, or maybe just cars.. i'm not sure.

the trip to edmonton seems to be easier and easier everytime, except maybe when theres a huge delay.
these nice guys gave me gas though so i wouldn't run out as we all had no idea how long we would be stopped.

now today, its crazy snow in calgary, and the forecast did not call for it. i myself haven't left the house all day.. but i hear roads are just awful.
I'm sad tonight, singing was cancelled (not due to roads) and i miss it... i should be there now. i know i just joined the group about a month ago but its been so awesome.
acting class is over tomorrow too.. that will be sad. i'll be sure to wear makeup but might cry anyways.

new job has started, it seems ok, i'll get used to it, just in time for it to be over and finished... but oh well. i just hope the roads get better. i'm excited that i get to fund an overnight trip to edmonton with the job though, and that it will pay weekly, thats pretty good too.

its always strange to me

how long people will spend putting someone else down when "they want nothing to do with them"

AWFUL Week . . .

UGH.
well I finished my project despite being completely unmotivated to do so... its done, its handed in... course 5 down.... 4 to go? that part is encouraging... class this weekend however is not, I finallt got used to weekend courses being just that, and this time quizzes with no time to prepare for them, and a major assignment due while we are in another course... YUCK.
Woke up wednesday morning to a nice . . . surprize. someone had smashed my passenger window, nothing was taken which i think makes me almost angrier... why?? what was the purpose of this vandalism... so work got cancelled and i spent 2 days getting it fixed... only to start getting sick... i had wanted to go see my favorite show this saturday night... now i think that would hinder the getting better aspect which is MUCH needed as i have an audition monday...
*sigh*


In other news... we might have to go back to the polls... i know its unlikely but part of me really hopes people will wise up so we can get rid of Harper.

sadly

even though you are a jerk, and I have no idea why...
i AM going to miss you...
maybe nights like tonight, though few and far between.
have a safe drive, and a great move, and best of luck in everything.
I'm sure I will see you again.
besides... i have your book, and you owe me a CD and a backstage pass.

OMG FUN!!!!

LOL
no ranting this time... just a superfun site...
that my friends are putting music up on, so go give support




we all know I will.

Majl . . . .ps

"awww, i have to admit you are the only one that has been able to keep me busy from watching a movie in a theater"

you made me cry again after all these years..... who knew?

Strange, we never talk.... yet when we do.... it seems to get brought up. You are right , absolutely right. We WERE good.... we were GREAT a while ago... it scared me, I held back. I didn't let you in. It WAS a very long time ago. I apologize. but heres where you are missing a truth..... i did care, i did want you. you meant a tonne... even if it was so soon after what is still my longest relationship.
i apologize for being so awful to you.
YOU were the first person I sang for... alone... Now ... I'm singing again. lessons, thought you should know.

even though I'd never say any of this to your face.
it was still nice talking to you.

i knew it was coming

eventually...
eventually i knew what happened would escape my lips, and to YOUR friend... who i suppose after all this time, and everything else, it TRULY MY friend instead... despite the FUGLY comments.
I AM mad about it...... how could you? i don't deserve that, i never have, i never will.... why.... why did you have to be like the rest? a jerk... which honestly... in ten years... i never once believed you could be.
NOT ONCE
throughout any of it.
silly me i guess....
but could you just F*CKING explain.....
for me???
after so long..... TEN years.... could you give me that, if really... thats all I have ever asked you for.

exercise...

what is it about you, that makes me want someone else there. validating my need to sweat and "feel the burn..."?

Let your skin be my hiding place...

if the radio didn't work . . . . and your friends all ran away . . . .
would it really be different? Would you stop deciding for me???
if i didn't decide at all.... if i didn't TRY to be your FRIEND...
I don't take up too much space. why won't you accept that
it shouldn't be that difficult that much of a struggle for you to tell me about your day.
why is it that I can't ask, yet so many others can....
did i get under your skin?
how? why?
because i'm not HER?
look at me, talk to me.
i'm not some strange evil...
and i certainly do not deserve this...

I hope this makes your day

Its so awful, it makes me laugh

awesome

just when i'm walking around, happy, loving the smell of fire and ice, and the memories or the feelings of fire and ice combined.... and then i open my mouth, you wonder why i don't talk. "The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions..." I didn't think this was hell. far from it.

something to look forward to. something to make me smile at random. something uninhibited and fun. something where i could plan . . . plan for nothing but fun. I was planning a trip for the end. this is not the way it was supposed to be, not how its supposed to happen. its supposed to end nicely. not in a fight. how does a fight even ensue if i have the best intentions.

"i'm just a soul whose intentions are good, oh lord please don't let me be misunderstood."

phew...

Glad to know it wasn't me.

Thanks

what have i done...

I am confused... maybe i have no reason to be, maybe i'm just being a silly stupid girl... but we talked, we figured and sorted everything out... why do i feel like now you're not so sure... could it be that now you don't respond... and i am left to wonder why.... why do you have no response.... if nothing else we are friends... friends respond.... 

maybe you're busy, maybe there are things going on, that you're not telling me...

but as my friend, perhaps you should?

Vote.. help a friend

http://www.majorspoilers.com/archives/7647.htm/


his costume is Bizarro, and Black Adam... but vote for Bizarro... it has a better chance to win

I want you... I want you so bad . . .

so tell me... Can you slip away??

hmmm

how do you break free of the one who gave birth to you?

arms . . . am i a secret?

You were from the North, I was from the South
We were from opposite places, different towns
But I knew it was good and you knew it was too
So we moved together like a ball and chain
Minds becoming two halves of the same
It was real, but in shadows it grew
Cos you've got a secret don't ya babe?
I would've shouted loud and broken through
I would've given it all to belong to you
But there were different plans, different rules
You said "where I'm from there is a lock and key
If you'd be so kind as to follow me
I will show you the way to the rest of my sins"
Cos you've got a secret don't ya babe?
Yeah you, you got a secret don't ya babe?
And I should know
Yeah I should know
So this room was damp where your sins laid
There was that smell in the air of an old place
That hadn't seen much daylight in years
And you threw me down, said,
"If ya don't mindI'm gonna leave you here until night time
Then we can do what we want my baby out of the spotlight."
Cos you've got a secret don't ya babe?
Yeah you, you got a secret don't ya babe?
And I should know
Yeah I should know
For I'm your secret aren't I babe?
Yeah I'm your secret aren't I babe?
Aren't I babe?