i knew it was coming

eventually...
eventually i knew what happened would escape my lips, and to YOUR friend... who i suppose after all this time, and everything else, it TRULY MY friend instead... despite the FUGLY comments.
I AM mad about it...... how could you? i don't deserve that, i never have, i never will.... why.... why did you have to be like the rest? a jerk... which honestly... in ten years... i never once believed you could be.
NOT ONCE
throughout any of it.
silly me i guess....
but could you just F*CKING explain.....
for me???
after so long..... TEN years.... could you give me that, if really... thats all I have ever asked you for.