its always strange to me

how long people will spend putting someone else down when "they want nothing to do with them"

AWFUL Week . . .

UGH.
well I finished my project despite being completely unmotivated to do so... its done, its handed in... course 5 down.... 4 to go? that part is encouraging... class this weekend however is not, I finallt got used to weekend courses being just that, and this time quizzes with no time to prepare for them, and a major assignment due while we are in another course... YUCK.
Woke up wednesday morning to a nice . . . surprize. someone had smashed my passenger window, nothing was taken which i think makes me almost angrier... why?? what was the purpose of this vandalism... so work got cancelled and i spent 2 days getting it fixed... only to start getting sick... i had wanted to go see my favorite show this saturday night... now i think that would hinder the getting better aspect which is MUCH needed as i have an audition monday...
*sigh*


In other news... we might have to go back to the polls... i know its unlikely but part of me really hopes people will wise up so we can get rid of Harper.

sadly

even though you are a jerk, and I have no idea why...
i AM going to miss you...
maybe nights like tonight, though few and far between.
have a safe drive, and a great move, and best of luck in everything.
I'm sure I will see you again.
besides... i have your book, and you owe me a CD and a backstage pass.

OMG FUN!!!!

LOL
no ranting this time... just a superfun site...
that my friends are putting music up on, so go give support




we all know I will.

Majl . . . .ps

"awww, i have to admit you are the only one that has been able to keep me busy from watching a movie in a theater"

you made me cry again after all these years..... who knew?

Strange, we never talk.... yet when we do.... it seems to get brought up. You are right , absolutely right. We WERE good.... we were GREAT a while ago... it scared me, I held back. I didn't let you in. It WAS a very long time ago. I apologize. but heres where you are missing a truth..... i did care, i did want you. you meant a tonne... even if it was so soon after what is still my longest relationship.
i apologize for being so awful to you.
YOU were the first person I sang for... alone... Now ... I'm singing again. lessons, thought you should know.

even though I'd never say any of this to your face.
it was still nice talking to you.

i knew it was coming

eventually...
eventually i knew what happened would escape my lips, and to YOUR friend... who i suppose after all this time, and everything else, it TRULY MY friend instead... despite the FUGLY comments.
I AM mad about it...... how could you? i don't deserve that, i never have, i never will.... why.... why did you have to be like the rest? a jerk... which honestly... in ten years... i never once believed you could be.
NOT ONCE
throughout any of it.
silly me i guess....
but could you just F*CKING explain.....
for me???
after so long..... TEN years.... could you give me that, if really... thats all I have ever asked you for.

exercise...

what is it about you, that makes me want someone else there. validating my need to sweat and "feel the burn..."?

Let your skin be my hiding place...

if the radio didn't work . . . . and your friends all ran away . . . .
would it really be different? Would you stop deciding for me???
if i didn't decide at all.... if i didn't TRY to be your FRIEND...
I don't take up too much space. why won't you accept that
it shouldn't be that difficult that much of a struggle for you to tell me about your day.
why is it that I can't ask, yet so many others can....
did i get under your skin?
how? why?
because i'm not HER?
look at me, talk to me.
i'm not some strange evil...
and i certainly do not deserve this...

I hope this makes your day

Its so awful, it makes me laugh

awesome

just when i'm walking around, happy, loving the smell of fire and ice, and the memories or the feelings of fire and ice combined.... and then i open my mouth, you wonder why i don't talk. "The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions..." I didn't think this was hell. far from it.

something to look forward to. something to make me smile at random. something uninhibited and fun. something where i could plan . . . plan for nothing but fun. I was planning a trip for the end. this is not the way it was supposed to be, not how its supposed to happen. its supposed to end nicely. not in a fight. how does a fight even ensue if i have the best intentions.

"i'm just a soul whose intentions are good, oh lord please don't let me be misunderstood."