Blind . . .

so thats what happens...
all hell breaks loose.
but if thats hell....
well
i like it.

fantastic fun, this game.

Save the drama....

Not for my mama!

UGH, so apparently the drama never ends, and rather than being supportive certain members of my mothers family, dislike my modelling. So after a lengthy conversation, and e-mails of photos to my father (who thought they were beautiful, and tasteful) hopefully they can give these answers to those who are "offended"
However, I feel I am a grown woman, and that these conversations should never have occured, as I feel I have the right to be able to do whatever I'd like.
So now I've eaten a big bag of jalepeno cheddar chips, and am going to have a drink and go to bed, and while the chips didn't make me feel better, they made my mouth burn, and thats good enough for me right now.

what would happen....

Electricity, eye to eye
Hey don't I know you
I can't speak

Stripped my senses
On the spot
I've never been defenseless
I can't even make sense of this
You speak and I don't hear a word

Chorus:
What would happen if we kissed
Would your tongue slip past my lips
Would you run away, would you stay
Or would I melt into you
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust

The room is spinning out of control
Act like you didn't notice
Brushed my hand

Forbidden fruit
Ring on my finger
You're such a moral, moral man
You throw it away, no question
Will I pretend I'm innocent

Chorus

I struggle with myself again
Quickly the walls are crumbling
Don't know if I can turn away


I guess I'm left wondering, unless of course, you snap, or i snap, or we both just stop playing....
but I must say this cat and mouse we are in right now IS fun... and you made me blush.

singing in the rain . . .

its quarter to 3, i can't seem to sleep, the double shot of espresso at 9 pm is most likely the cause, however last week was a good week.
I was re-reading this, and i find it funny, how i said I was happy with mr, uncool ... looking back, i think i just tried to convince myself, and perhaps prove to people i could be in a relationship..
oh well.
i AM happy right now.
I had a very good week.
I miss my friends, miss b is away, nic is off on a peruvan adventure, and i'm stuck here, bored, but making a good new friend.
was "adopted" this past week, by a young new friend and loved every minute of it, from cherries in the park, to a check up, to breakfast,a random "jam session" and a late night horror movie complete with fundip and tickles. upon thinking after... its almost surreal, so I won't. but it was great.

had a fantastic skype date with a dear sweet friend, i worry about her, shes sick, and has goon to hawaii to recover. I wish. I feel like i need to travel soon.

maybe with magic...... that would be AWESOME....
which means i should get on dance class, burlesque burn starts this week, hopefully that will help with my "on stage grace"
was finally put in an illusion this week, kub zag... i was awkward, but with practise it will get better.
and i can't wait!