hmmm

why is it that i can't audition for you.... of all people.
you were the first to show real faith in me..

but then you cancelled.

is that why?
or is it that I want to work with you so badly, that i want you to push me, that i just freeze... and get tongue tied, wanting what i've chosen to be the RIGHT thing.... to be what "shows me off" best.

maybe i just want to be given a chance, to know that you still have that faith...