Superman

you are awesome, so great to meet you.
Thanks for making work fun.


new promo company.... hopefully goes well..... this new guy says its great, i trust him and take his word for it.... but the manager out here makes it tougher.

Thanks to great friends and red wine for making this weekend great even with all the work.

:)

boredom

*sigh*
BORING shift today......
I guess I can't always get visitors, AND have a relaxing shift...

NOISY today.... yuck.
although the gift is kinda sweet... very funny, i'll see how it looks before i decide anything.

ushering was cancelled last night.... SAD!!! But I got to meet the cast, and go ON STAGE, which is the ORIGINAL, and sign up for several more ushering shifts!!! AND Karaoke was great, sang a tonne, new friends are lovely.

although everyones pessimism today i could really do without, if you don't want my help fine, but you COULD be great, and its a JOB.... so really.... why wouldn't you?

i am loving

Pushing Daisies.

its so Brilliant, and clever.

i am very sad that once again there are only 2 seasons.

all the good shows get cancelled.

back

i really wish i could be in two places at once.
two cities have my heart.
or perhaps its just people in this city......

EVIL DEAD was AWESOME!!!!
I will go see it again and again.

hmmmm no mail yet..... something MUST be WRONG with CANADA POST..... yet my bills seem to arrive just fine.

I WANT TO SEE UP!!!!

or any of the movies we have been trying to see for weeks really.

again we don't always get what we want.

and yeah... i am a "little bit"

however

sad as I am and will be to leave, coming home brings BLOOD (evil dead LOL) and an answer to a question i suppose.

Did you actually send everything you claim to have?
well I won't know until i return.

Now... do I come back up for the Sterlings? I guess I will find out tomorrow before I leave this wonderful place.

royal treatment

so....
upon arrival in edmonton, we were treated like princesses.
next morning i woke up to breakfast.

so we painted a room to say thanks... he wanted it painted i swear!!!

the play tonight was awesome, i reccommend it to everyone.
i'll be sad to go tomorrow.
every time i leave this city i am sad.

but visits are never complete without IT... used to be YOU too... but thats done.

YOU..........

thank you for being so lovely lately.

I love the "beaver dam" Oh how it has made me laugh all day...
ha ha ha ha ha

good sleep last night,
so comfortable....
finally.

edmonton

Oh... how I love you....
still....

The welcome dinner was amazing, the drive was super fun, road trip partners are great. Carisa always makes me laugh.
However..... now.... now that I am sitting, I am feeling.... i'm not sure... saddened... frustrated, and rather strange.
So much so that I am left wondering what feeling I am actually experiencing.
But I don't like it.
And i KNOW its your fault.

feeling are flooding back.

things i want to say, and don't know how. things i want to do and cant.

I am finally physically better... perhaps, as of ... yesterday......
emotionally... clearly is a whole different issue.

and i kind of sort of hate you for this.

SHE is very kind though, as already asked if I spoke to you.

ugh

drinking was a bad idea...

plan

no mother i DO NOT need a PLAN....
nor should i be ASHAMED of whats happened...
I NEED to go away.
I NEED to move.
i WANT to move.

but i also kind of want to crawl into a hole and die....
so I guess we don;t always get what we want do we?

well....

I have left the house....
gone to a large event.
even made the cupcakes for it.
people seemed to like them, and the pinup girls serving them.

new business?

LOL

that'd be ... SWEET. ha ha ha

alberta opera has auditions.... i want to.... but would YOU cause a problem... its not like i'd be working with YOU anyways...but it IS your friends company...

I hate this feeling like you would try to sabotage my career.
i'm not sure you WOULD... but then again, i never thought you could be this much of a jerk.

Its been a week... i'm still broken and TRYING desperately not to shut down.
Thanks to "Jesus" for letting me pester you so much. . . and to you for the long distance call.

i think i want....

to try dragonboating....

and to get a new tattoo or two....

i lost my piercing in the surgery....

do i repierce... making that the third time?

so ....

"how could i be such a fool to think . . . .?"

the question still lingers.

did you actually tell her?

should i?

should SHE??

what if WE tell HER too???

Hallelujah

Now I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah

"i was there ... now i'm not"

....
funny
cause you WERN'T there.... still arn't.

although i need you.

even if i might not want to.

still

... want to move... you'll have to deal.
... want my money.
... want to act.
... think this is ridiculous.
... wish that todays phone call had cheered me.
... going to be going to all shows i have tickets to. yours or not. ... again you'll have to deal.

Unfair

I have been kind, i have been caring, and i have kept my mouth shut... until now.

funny.... how many of us have you been lying to.

me... her... how about the others... the two at least... but are there more?

is that why you are "done"... i know too much... i ask too many questions....
i am the one who has scared you?

i do not deserve this.

i do however deserve support at the very least..
oh, and my money.

CannonBall

There’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
There’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
It’s still a little hard to say what's going on

There’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
There’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can´t say what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
There’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can´t see what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So its not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon.

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage, teach me to be shy
'Cause its not hard to fall,
And I don't want to scare her
Its not hard to fall
And i don't want to lose
Its not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know