stalker.....

i really hope that wasn't about me, yes i saw that...... better not have been about me,
number 1, i was going to invite you, but i thought you were cast bonding.
i can't help but be a little ........ off that i am being lied to, and feeling .... used.

alternatively

thanks to you.... it doesn't really help, but its a nice distraction.

this sucks

I'm upset, and i miss you,
and i tried, i put myself out there, i worked my *ss off...... for what????

secret

We lead two different lives
Just like two lines that never cross
And here we are together
Standing closer than we are
But were still standing here untouched
Too scared to make a move
We want so much to touch
And we cant wait forever
We know its dangerous
For us to be together

How do we ever keep this secret
How do we keep it in the dark
And if we dare to taste our weakness
How could we tear ourselves apart
Why do we keep this love together
Didnt we know right from the start
That we would have to keep this secret
Or forever stay apart

I watch you coming to me
Walking in the pouring rain
I cant help looking at you
Wishing I could stay away
So many times Ive tried in vain
To close my eyes and pray it goes away
But I cant stop myself from feeling
To let you go would be too much
For me to take

How do we ever keep this secret
How do we deep it in the dark
And if we dare to taste our weakness
How could we tear ourselves apart
Why do we keep this love together
Didnt we know right from the start
That we would have to keep this secret
Or forever stay apart

I cant help thinking
When I look into your eyes
How much I need you
Its so hard to hide

How do we ever keep this secret
How do we keep it in the dark
And if we dare to taste our weakness
How could we tear ourselves apart
Why do we keep this love together
Didnt we know right from the start
That we would have to keep this secret
Or be doomed to stay apart

A week ago . . . Under The Water

i get confused when i'm tired
but the last time i saw you
we were in a room
with sunshine in my eyes
and water on the floor
i watched you float away
take me with you

a long time ago
we were walking around
we were rolling around
in the graden
in the garden
i saw you turn around
and still you turn around
my eyes are playing tricks on me
how i miss you

I could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be standing on a ladder
to make it easier
to make it easier

your eyes are colored stone
you've got an earring through your nose
your chains are made of gold
i dont think they would float
but floating is what you do
that is beautiful
that is you

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be swimming out to save you
no one ever saves you
to make it easier

i'll be your lover
under the water
i could be standing
to make it easier

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be standing on a ladder
to make it easier
to make it easier

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be swimming out to save you
no one ever saves you
to make it easier

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be swimming out to save you
no one ever saves you
to make it easier

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be standing on a ladder
to make it easier
to make it easier

i could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be swimming out to save you
no one ever saves you
to make it easier

i could could be your lover
chained under the water
under the water
i could be swimming out the save you
no one ever saves you
to make it easier

beautiful stuff

You are the sweetest thing...... TERRIBLE i know.

i shouldnt think these things you make me think.

had the coolest experiences the other day, fed giraffes, played with hippos, fed and got kisses from camels, and fed LIONS (which is about as scary as it sounds) Lions were the grossest cause they got white rabbits, so when they bit the heads off...... well..... you know,
giraffes are my favorite, cutest faces, and i have always loved them, but the rule with them is yuo can't touch them but they can touch you. camels are neat cause they give kisses if you ask, so thats just sweet. and hippos get excited and just want pets and love, and food thrown into their mouths, like a child she opened her mouth full of crunched up green pepper hoping for more,

*sigh*

YOU...
I wish I got to see you longer... I miss you.
All parts of you.

It makes me very happy that you were able to "slip away" even if it was very brief.
Great talk Monday, thank you.
month over. Thank goodness...