strange

so, i have a boyfriend...
its valentines day...
but it doesn't really feel any different. . . although now my pet count has gone up, and no they didn't have babies . . .i have two tiny hermit crabs.


i still don't think i like this holiday.

in response to a list . . . .

so my friend miss b, decides to call me girlie, which is fine, since well... i should face it, i kinda am.

however...lady, you are never too old to "makeout" for 3 hours in any given night.


sidenote: i hate waking up at 5 am 2 nights in a row for no reason. although company helps.
as the girls know, i was "ted mosby'd" and i'm still ok with it....
i'm happy, and thats what matters most right now

so . . .

I finally get to volunteer....

and what do I get told right after the show????
how perfect I would have been for one of the roles.

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?

sadness...

it will always upset me when someone so good gets taken from this earth too soon...
it breaks my heart.
she was so good.
so wonderful.
and now its all over so quickly, so unexpected, too soon...
I'm sorry dear friend, I will miss you, and already do.

trying to ....

get motivated.

thinking too much

the tears come.... i can't help them... i don't even mean for them to arrive, but they do, they sting in the cold, on the short drives home. and now 2 of the 3 girls are gone, so there went my needed "distractions"
road trip this weekend, i hope, assuming roads stay dry. i miss edmonton, it has only been a month.
i seem to just hate calgary more and more, i thought i was getting back on track, i cleaned my apartment, was working more... now i'm working less, cleaning far less, and wanting to go away more and more all over again.
today was fun, it felt so good to hold a knife again.
singing last night was great, oh how i have missed singing. and i SANG last night, in the crowd, not knowing, not having rehearsed, but i sang to be heard, not just to sing.
i'd like to get a string on my violin, maybe that too would be good, like riding a bike i hope...

Can't help but smile

- made sirius radio work online today, all broadway all day.
- you sending me a text saying you got my present today....you were the only one who was really GOOD at gifts.... yet you don't want anything... i'm surprised you got me something at all.
- otherwise ... i'm bored.
still angry... but onto ignoring you... or trying to.