why do i bother?

I check my emails. I try to volunteer when i can help out.
BUT... this has me upset.
I offer to Volunteer for a role in the theatre community, helping out where you would think i'd be needed the most. I even took a course on the role.
I'm told i got the position. then ... no word, nothing.... alright, sure maybe they are busy, maybe they found someone else.
so i talk to YOU... who tells me its not your decision... okay, fair enough. BUT...
Then i get asked, AGAIN, if i will do it, to which i respond, yes, of course. . . . NOTHING.
and AGAIN, from a different person... two different people, in one day.
so now i say, i thought i was already, yes i'd love to help, i've said that from day one, just let me know when and where i need to be.

AFTER all of this, they say they don't need me after all...

and now i am still getting e-mails asking for more volunteers.
i'm not responding, especially after the e-mail I recieved today.

which somehow stated that the decision DID have something to you with YOU....

hmmmm

I GIVE UP.

cardio-twist

why is it that infomercials make things seem so great?
I mean i know thats their job... man if promo work made things seem that great, no one would say no to all the free stuff.... so many people say no, it always blows my mind. too busy to stop and talk to the promo girls... but go home and watch an infomercial, and be convinced that thats what you NEED...

i do however NEED to cardio-twist, much like i needed the magic bullet (which despite what Sophie says totally works... now to get the new improved one with attachments..)

missing

you were so lovely.... thank you for your time, thank all of you.
sorry my visit was so short.
i'd really like to come back.

PIT........

So I was offered a PIT role...
It would mean, working my ass off to learn the violin really quick for miss saigon.
I know people in Miss Saigon, and it would be sweet to do.
I just need to focus as soon as I get back to Calgary, pick up some music, go get a string and a re-tuning. and then see if I am ready to go to rehearsal on Friday.

But IF I can pull it off.... It'd be pretty sweet.

Recycled..

Here I am sitting in Vancouver, which IS beautiful despite all the rain, and thinking its so cool how even when I haven't seen people in years we can just pick up where we left off, like nothings happened. It is also funny to me, and I think its kind of interesting, that I have seen more people while here than people who came out for my birthday. Okay that part just depresses me a little.
I miss my girls in Calgary, who knew I'd like them so much, and I miss my pets, but otherwise I like it here, although I'm sure if i moved noone would come out as often.
I just think its strange, you are friends with someone and then you move, last time I was here I think I saw one person.... This time, I'm not going to have enough time to see everyone.

in happier news

My show was awesome.... and now i want more!

getting annoyed

i'm not sure if its the people, or the job.... but i'm annoyed....
3 days left in edmonton, 3 full days of work...
heres hoping for a dinner with top gun. that would certainly cheer me up.

also, not sure whats going on with my phone. it seems to only send a few of the messages...